Brake.

I have been undergoing vigorous training; from speedwork, drills to LSD to prepare myself for very exciting races in the final quarter of the year. There were the 4km KL Rat Race, 10km Putrajaya Night Run Corporate Challenge, 42km Standard Chartered KL Marathon, 12km Great Eastern Live Great Run & last but not least stamping my mark on the new Penang Bridge for another 42km full marathon.

Being an avid runner, you can't help but to feel pumped up with such an exciting schedule. But being mere mortal, I succumbed to injury.

It was early September, I was running around 9pm, clocking my 4.0km time. I was blazing it at a 4"/km pace, & pretty sure I'm going to clock under 17 minutes for that distance. Unfortunately over the 2km mark, I was running along the road shoulder and suddenly a bike dash towards me, I evaded but slipped and landed awkwardly on uneven ground. I thought, "Nah, I can run through the pain". I did and still managed to clock 17"24 over 4km despite hurting myself earlier. The following day, I played football, I suffered a knock on the same left leg I sprained the day before. Being stubborn again the following morning I ran 10km - to my horror after that my left knee were locked. I couldn't walk normally, I could barely sleep because it hurts so badly.

Still being stubborn, 2 weeks since the insidious weekend it was KL Rat Race. Leading the OCBC team, with an enthusiastic bunch of teammates - I hate that I may let them down because I wasn't at top condition and this was such an anticipated event. I ran through the pain, clocked 17"48 over 4.27km and our team emerged 2nd runner up for the Open Category. 

From L-R in red : OCBC Team A - Weng Khong, Gin, Kirk, Marvin & myself

Call me kiasu or foolish, but I thrive for victories and I hate to lose. After merely 4km, my knee hurts - again. I decided it was time to get it checked. 

It was timely. I seen an orthopedic, did MRI scan and he confirmed that I have torn my lateral meniscus. 

As horror glooms, I started throwing him a lot of questions. Will I be able to run again? If yes, how soon? Do I need surgery? What can I do to fix this?

Meniscus are crescent-shaped cartilages that serve as shock-absorbents between you femur (thigh bone) and tibia (shin bone).

He told me I need to shy away from physical exercises that exert high pressure to the knees for at least 3 weeks, if it is still not healed then - surgery is required. It has been 2 weeks now, but I am feeling great. I took a couple non-surgical measures to speed up my recovery that you may consider trying too if you have been diagnosed with similar condition,

1. Consume Glucosamine
   - it serves as a building block for synovial fluids that lubricate joints and promote healthy cartilages.

   

   Those with certain medical condition should consult their physician before use

2. Acupuncture
   - the meniscus actually have minimal blood supply, hence acupuncture enhance blood circulation to the injured meniscus area to promote rapid healing
   

   

   Elephant thighs

So, this Saturday I have a 10km Putrajaya Night Marathon and the following morning 42km Standard Chartered KL Marathon. Though I may feel as if I am fine to run (or just pumped with adrenaline), I have decided that I will not run the 42km full marathon.

This full marathon is supposed to be my 9th, which was registered early of the year. The fulfillment that comes with completing a full marathon is divine. Just ask the people who has done it. I want to feel divine again, I want to overcome the adversities and conquer the grueling distance but circumstances disallow it.

After many get-well wishes, supportive words and advises from loved ones (you know who you are) which I am utterly grateful of, I pondered;

• Is this the only chance I will ever have to run KL Marathon?
• Is this the only chance I will ever have to run a marathon?
• Will I lose any form of sponsorship if I did not start?
• Am I required to start to get an appearance fee?

All of the answers to the foregoing are all NO. I just can't bear the fact of aggravating the injury on my precious knee, I still would want to chase my kids around or at least play football with them. If you are currently suffering some health condition, which may be more or less severe than mine, I would suggest you mellow down on such physical activities. Allow your body to do its magic en route to recovery.

A self-reminder; Pull the brake, miss a marathon now for many more marathons ahead. Sounds lovely, doesn't it?

Windfall.

As mentioned earlier, here I am again. The catalyst to my urge to write another post was a special remark made by my friend. We all love positive reinforcements, don't we? :)

Just a random thought. What would you do if you had a windfall of say, 1 million dollars? Well what is 1 millon dollars these days, so many people are millionaires. With inflation, rise of living costs, increase in life expectancy - circumstances changed. The value of a million has diminished since.

Well, let's step it up to $10,000,000. What would you do if you had a windfall of $10m?

The answer may constructed by many factors - way of life, status, vision and dream. For example - Ser Siang, I know he is passionate about combating hunger. If he had abundance of health to dispose (wait, he already has!), he would probably donate food to feed the needy or even set up a research institute that generates crops at faster rate? Another friend of mine, Ker Lee shared a similar point of view, she ultimately would use her wealth to fight against diseases and hunger, aiding those in need.

We've lead a comfortable life, sometimes it's good to realize the not-so-perfect side of life. It's terrific to help the less fortunate when you can afford to.

On the other hand, some would say, they dream to increase the literacy level in Malaysia, set up more libraries and affordable learning institutions.

Besides all these selfless thoughts, there are who are simpler and have other intentions. I've heard that one would stop working and live on with comfort because $10m is good to feed one person till he/she reaches their deathbed. How about dreams, legacy, the world is offspring is going to be born into?

I shall share my thoughts on what I would do if I had such a windfall. Because I came from a middle-class family, my aspirations may differ a little.

Firstly, I would delegate a portion of the wealth for investment - be it properties, stocks, land, start a F and B chain or anything that enables capital appreciation and generate returns (what to do, we humans have insatiable desire for wealth).

Next, I would like to share with you I have a dream, my dream is to nurture. I want to nurture, teach, guide and develop people. Be it helping a school kid achieve his gold medal in sports, helping an overweight person to be fit, or even simply inspire one to be a better member of the society.

Recently, the London Olympics was held. Even more recent was the Paralympics. Heck, when I saw a photo of the trainer leading blind sprinters in a 100m event, I had goosebumps. I thought to myself, the paralympic athletes are amazing beings, their determination is out of the world! But the patience and dedication of their trainers are not short of the description of amazing either. I've even seen a blind Kenyan marathon runner. Hats off to these people who give us more to ponder on humanity.

Respect.

Because of my enthusiasm in sports, I wish to set up an academy that would train, nurture young talents. There's so much that sports can offer besides shaping you to be fit, it cultivates discipline. My passion to nurture and develop someone may be related to my urge to start a family and have kids. Imagining the little ones develop into fine beings (no matter how tough it is), ah that would make me smile - a smile that I would proudly bring to my grave.

Next, I would pamper those who are dear to me - my family, extended family, wife (if I'm ever blessed with one), close friends. Seeing people around me happy makes me happy. Note the title of my blog; "It's you that matters". It has never changed since 2005 when I started this blog. When I said it's you that matters, it doesn't refer to a specific girl, mind you. It actually refers to everyone close to me, each and everyone of you matters to me, in whatever extend of proximity.

Lastly, I would love to travel everywhere else! I used to be a school boy Geography-nerd, I love looking at atlas, maps and identifying flags. Among the places that I would like to visit are New York, Vancouver, Rio de Janeiro, Paris, Venice, Capri, Rome, The Alps, Seoul, New Zealand, Maldives, Beijing, Yangtze River, Hong Kong, South Africa & so much more! So far I've only crossed Malaysian borders to Thailand, Singapore, London and Melbourne - but not forgetting my trip to Tokyo by end of this year! I would love to see every other part of the world :).

I may have came to the end of my thoughts for today. Need to keep some brain juice flowing for work tomorrow. Back to reality! But yeah - those are my thoughts and wish that I would like to realize them some day.

Morphed.

Greetings to all exisiting/non-existing readers of this forsaken blog.

I am guessing if you are reading this blog, it is either you care about me, missed me, wondering if I'm still alive, you're a stalker, or you're just really bored. I choose to think you care and missed me, thank you - for being here, means a lot to me.

I would to shed some light on why I've been missing from the blogging community and what I've been up to. Heck, as I log in to Blogspot it's like a completely different avenue.

Firstly, I've lost the enthusiasm - the drive to write long posts or update what I've been up to. I used to blog about what I eat, where I go, or even who I am out with - not anymore. Yes, the attention from readers is welcoming and warm but I guess I learned that we can't be contented in every sense.

Secondly, I've out-grown the past-Meng Leong. The relatively more carefree, younger me is a little less carefree now. Stepping into the corporate world and thinking in businesses point of view shape you that way. I work in a bank, and frankly speaking it is not as 'fun' and probably a little dry. What was I thinking, putting 'fun' and bank in the same sentence just doesn't intermingle, does it? But I'm very thankful of the lovely working environment I'm in, lovely colleagues and boss - never short of light hearted moments without compromising productivity. In addition, I love the work life balance at OCBC, it is superbly pleasant as I move up my learning curve. My brain juice has been sapped for as long as a sun rises till it sets 5 days a week, I just didn't have the mood to blog.

Next, the lack of things to talk about. I dare say Banker-Meng-Leong is a lot less happening than Student-Meng-Leong. Haha it doesn't mean life is as dull as shit now, my life's good - pardon me, probably just tad bit lazy and giving excuses.

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A little history session now, bear with me. It's been a long, long time since I first started this blog in 2005 - & much has changed. Secondary school, sports, games, falling head over heels for her, tertiary education, marathon, so much more & now. I've morphed - so have the people around me.

How different did ML morphed? Banker-Meng-Leong now ENJOYS reading newspaper from end to end (yes, 'enjoys' needs to be in capital letter because I find reading newspaper delightful!). I am very mindful of how to allocate and use my resources now, like every prudent, responsible adult should be. I've grown to force myself think for the long run, before you label me as Mr. Boring (or UNCLE BORING), I am just a little less of the in-the-moment-kinda-guy, you get the drift. Don't get me wrong I still enjoy the fine (and not so fine) things in life, just with a clearer conscience. On the other hand, I dare say I'm fitter now :). My stamina has improved tremendously from my consistency in training and all, and you must agree with me that being physically well is just bliss, isn't it?

No matter how we change, crucially we should have clear goals and move forward instead of regressing. I've shared with you a little of which part of me changed, now I tell you what remained the same.

My determination. If I've set my mind to get something done, nothing or very few things can stop me. Stubborn, maybe - but a good kind of stubbornness. It's sometimes a struggle to not over-do something that might implicate overwhelming consequences. In short, I sometimes need a reminder on when to stop, because I sometimes may run out of clue on whether I've crossed the line. I might not keep in touch with all my friends or even you - but you must know you are always held close to heart. 

If you've read from top to here, you would have a little insight on what have been going through my noodle :).

In case you forgotten how I looked like,

Here is a shameless reminder ;)

Writing here is refreshing. I absolutely hope the existence of this dear blog has not been completely forgotten. That's it for now!

Cheers, to a better tomorrow.

Number 2.

Hello, it's clearly I've been missing in action for real long. I point finger to internship, How I Met Your Mother, The Big Bang Theory, running, Twitter, Facebook and 9gag. That's pretty much my life if I'm not out socializing. There have been thoughts of altering my blogging style, from now on I'll blog much less and will try to upload my thoughts. Probably not as interesting as event-blogging but it will be interesting if you're keen to know what's in my noodles ;).

Today I would like to blog about;

# 2

Have you felt as if no matter how hard you try, you always came up short and turn out to be second best? It could be anything, seeking attention from family and friends, achievement in academics or sports, performance at work, or any form of psychological triumph?

Here's the story of my life.

Don't mean to blow my own trumpet, if you know me, you would probably know I'm Jack of all trades, master of none. In running for instance, I've never had total domination or am awesomely good at it, I'm just fairly good. For example, I've trained my socks off since I was 13 till the very last Sports Day aiming to win Gold medals in track events. Participating in 5 events, I got 5 silvers, consistently. Forgive me for ranting, 2nd best is never enough. It was Yong Meng who dominated the long distance runs and then there was Khairil conquering short distance. I was really close to being awarded the school's best athlete in numerous occasions. In a few competitive races, I've won 1st runner up but never 1st. There seems to be always a dude out there who are either more talented, or work harder than you.

 I'm the 2nd child in the family. Heard of the middle child syndrome? Typically the eldest child is the leader, often he has strong decisive qualities that allow him to make firm decisions, probably due to the expectations and special attention given to him by his parents. The youngest child is probably the loudest and sometimes spoiled because they are not much pressured than the eldest. The middle child is then left out, usually not given much attention. This results in the middle child having relatively lower self-esteem and may struggle with identifying their role/position in the family.
Okay, I think I shouldn't continue to sound overly bitter. To sum it up, I believe each and everyone is distinctive in their respective ways. On a lighter note, to everyone who feels insignificant, you're not the only one. Search for your true calling and strive hard towards it, regardless of whatever adverse conditions you may encounter. Cheers :).

Transitional Phase

Ah, I remember putting on my concert costume performing one last time during my kindergarden days which I spent at Holy Light Kindergarten. Then my kindergarten teacher had a hard time finding a mortar board to fit my relatively big 6 year old head. Then I knew time to say good bye to my friends and teacher where I continue my primary and secondary education elsewhere.

That transition was not something I look forward to because I like my friends, perhaps I'm a fan of familiarity. Even at such young age I was thinking in such manner.

Now, after 15 years, the finishing line of my tertiary education is within sight. I had to bid farewell to a place I spent 3 years at - Kampar. Fair to say my good times there over-weigh the not so good ones. It was my first time leaving my home (then), so it wasn't easy. I'm sure it's likewise for anyone who left their hometown to pursue their studies.

I recall when the days of putting on school uniform comes to an end in 2007, a lot people whom I was close with headed different directions. It was tough settling into a new surrounding such as UTAR, sometimes it's like a duck trying to fit into a flock of chickens. Eventually, the people I met during my Foundation in PJ are the people who are closer.

There are a lot of people that I would like to thank to help me through but there are certain individuals whom I would like to extend my gratitude, deserved to be mentioned here. Firstly, Mr. Long. Oh tai lou(big brother), you're ever concerned and warm, especially after the occasional fights I had with my ex-girlfriend when she's at KL and I'm at Kampar. I had a tendency to sulk alone, and you were there to accompany me and we would go grab a meal together.

Then, CPM I dare say among so many people I've work with for assignments and work, you're definitely one of the most reliable. Your assistance in class and off class are invaluable to me, thank you :).

Captain/Founder of Brothers Futsal team, you might not realize but your presence actually lighten up the people around you. Thank you for encouraging me to play futsal and invited me to join your team - it's hard to mix around there without any teammates. & also the times when you gave word of advice when I'm having rough patch with my ex-girlfriend, I appreciate that too.

Greatstyler, your ever caring nature touches me. Fun-loving and opinionated, you're truly one great guy. Never regret having you as a friend, my buddy.

CLC, probably the reason why I leaned more towards the darker side. Your mixture of being caring-outgoing-funny-perverted nature never fail to make people laugh. Thanks for the times you've been there for me man.

Apparent-"BFF", your presence never fail to lift up my spirits. Though you got me into deep trouble last time, I've never regretted our friendship because we are clean :). You're a friend any person would definitely cherish. Thanks for listening to my rants, thanks for being there :).

imba player, perhaps the person I spent most time with throughout my tenure in UTAR. You may present yourself as a playful dude, but you're a great company. I'm glad to have a familiar face around me as I step into tertiary education. We've come a long way since Std 1 - now grown into men at the driving seat controlling the direction of our respective lives.

Last but not least, chocolate cake. If you are ever reading this, I'm apologetic and sorry on what kind of state we both are in at the moment. Glad to have you in my life anyhow. You carved your mark in me indefinitely which I'll carry till the day I stop breathing. Thanks for completing me once, and bringing me happiness that I never felt with anyone before.

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I've also learned that life is never a smooth ride, if you think it is, you deserve a wake-up call. The closest people to you could possibly be the one that hurt you most. Keep your guard up. There are pretentious people out there. Be careful of who you tell your personal matters to - some are really concerned aiming to help you while most of them are merely curious. 

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So that's it. No more waking up to fresh air, storks flying above you, seeing huge monitor lizards and otters swimming, seeing uncles out-doing each other in fishing, play futsal in Westlake, embracing the lake-hill scenery, cycling to class, burning midnight oil for exams, eating relatively cheap good Kampar food, hanging out at Ipoh, running with Kampar people and so on.

We all encounter transitional periods in our lives, as excited as I am on the changes that are bound to happen, I dare say I am intimated looking forward in the uncertain future.

My 1 week break has come to an end, and Monday marks the first day of internship at OCBC Bank. Pretty positive that I will spend much lesser times here. I'm wishing my peers all the best, be strong, have faith in transitional phase like this. Do not lose faith.

Plus, my 21st birthday is around the corner. Any suggestion on how I should celebrate it?

Last but not least, anyone out there care to fill my empty glass?

Love endures all things.

:)

Go the extra mile for the ones you love. Don't give up.

Of lies and denial.

Can someone who really despise cheating/lying/hiding the truth, be the one who actually speaks the most lies you've known?

Worst, if that person is the person you cared for, the most.

All the good, decent, impression you had in me, had totally vanished.

The flaming devotion I had for you in addition to respect, since then, has diminished and
Thank you, for killing and putting off the last glowing splinter(no you can't rekindle this through a test tube of oxygen gas you science freaks) I had for you.

I've always fear that you will let me down, and you did.

A little warning to all, to be vary of lies around you.

I hit a Jac-pot :)

So far, I can say I'm making good use of my time around. I've been up to a lot of stuffs including catching up with my buddies.

My Asus laptop is all up and ready :).

I'm aware I'm turning into a dull blogger. Never blogging about stuffs that interest any of you. But well, I'm sorry for that. I think I've lost my blogging-mojo :(.

At the moment, I would like to share my current personal thoughts, of the things and people I'm gonna miss when I study at Kampar.

Firstly, of course my family. My loving old man, the ever-nagging mother, studious brother, Fahrenheit-freak younger sister, and I-know-everything-in-the-house youngest sister.

Secondly, my friends. Yes, you. I'm sorry I've never acted like I appreciate you guys, but deep down in me, I truly appreciate every single one of you, my friends. Even you lucky people who are currently studying abroad, pursuing your respective future prospects. From U.S., to U.K., to Australia.

& how can I not miss her, Jacqueline Chan Choi Quin. Early this year, I never thought 2008 would be year someone come into my life. She rose up to the task, the task of filling up my empty glass of longing-ness for a special someone. & heck babe, you're amazing. You're understanding, truthful, affectionate and I can go on listing the whole day. I can't believe you can stand my rants cause even my mother can't. Yes we both have bumpy roads along the way, but which couple never felt any bumps? The bump I meant was obstacles and not the bum, one's behind :).

We're so use to seeing each other often, I think I'll find it awfully tough not to have you around for half a year. Along the time frame, I'll try to come back as often as I could. I'll miss playing with ur hair, and ur bouncy belly :D. I know you'll miss getting your hands on my brawny pair of assets (the assets were refering to my legs, mind you) and what else, 'move it move it'? LOL.

I've come up with this collage of us, merely cutting and pasting. Not gonna be the most brilliant you've ever seen but I like it. Do you ? :)

Babe, thank you for the wonderful blissful time, and I'm sure we'll have to welcome more in the future :).

I love you, Jac, you gorgeous little thing you.
I'm here blogging in the wee hours in the morning, and you're probably sleeping. Without replying my message. (I like to make her feel bad :D) Haha joking.




& so it continues.
It's not like I'm leaving for somewhere really far away, but wtf don't spoil the moment.

If anyone wishes to drop by at Perak, don't forget to ring me and I shall entertain you :D.

I've just read Wei Kit's blog a while ago, and man Wei Kit, your post is so inspiring I banyak suka. Tomorrow morning I'm determined to wake up early to do interval runs! :) It's about time I consider working hard to stay as fit as I could.

Oh no, now it's already 3am+ tomorrow can wake up early anot ? :\

I Don't Wanna Know.

Hello readers. If you totally hate reading, I suggest you cancel out this post. This isn't the most pleasant of posts.

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Should we even have met in the first place?
Somehow I'm glad we did.
If not, I wouldn't feel so blissful for a moment.
But, what use is it to feel contented and get hurt the next second?

When I first saw you,
I see all I want in a girl.
Sparks, you call it?

No one has made me feel the same way as you did.
Really.

I guess Cupid shot me at the wrong time.
You were so perfect to me.
Call me blind.
You've got me head over heels over you.
My feelings for you were pure.

I'm aware that I'm not the type of guy you're looking for,
My close ones have been throwing sensible advice to me.
Forcing me to swallow the fact.
I've got to let all my friends know how much I appreciate their respective concern.

"Fall deep. & you'll get hurt badly"

But, I'm desirous to make you mine.
Although even dreaming of you isn't the best thing to do at the moment.

To have you next to me.
Would you let me feel you once more?
The scent of yours make me go nuts, I swear.
Wishing the moment would pass by as slow as ever.
I would never ever take back that moment, because I cherish it.

I hope you choose the one who meant the most to you.
My wish for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to.
That I'm ready to catch you if you're willing to fall, for me.

Why am I falling and feeling so devoted to you?
I find it tough to answer that question myself.

You gave me misleading signals.
Like as if I'm someone special to you.
So can you please stop it.
Stop it cause I can't take it anymore.

Aren't you even aware of my feelings?

You might think,
HEY, we NEVER had a thing together.
Tell me if that's true.

Now, I'm feeling lost.
Don't know what to do.
Cause I know that I'll never be with you.

I don't wanna know,
If you're playing me.
Cause my heart can't take it anymore.

I don't wanna know,
Where your whereabouts or what you're doing.
It's been proven, my feelings you've been abusing.
I'm puzzled.

Perhaps I should stop sulking.
I've got a shout-out to all.

Don't be a fool like me.
Stay away from some girls you think aren't the right one for you.
They bite.
Once they bite, it hurts.
Badly.

Not your regular tag.

Rules : For those who have been tagged, you are required to write a story about one of your crushes, be it a current or a previous crush. To be exactly different from the common tags, there is no questions imposed this time. All you have to do is to write a story about him/her. Also, 5 person will need to be tagged at the end of the post. You must post up these rules before you start writing.

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Tagged by Violet.
This is one odd tag, it might not be a post that you enjoy reading dearly, so bear with me.

This one is on Wei Guan.

Dear Wei Guan,

I can still remember the day I first make an effort to get your e-mail address,
Because that time you were the apple of Thian Hong's eye.

Hit me, I still remember the moment I first stole a glance at you,
You still had your specs on that time, haha.

You and Lisa joked,
"Hey you like MengLeong. haha"

I have a photographic memory on whatever happened on that day.
I confessed I had a crush on you,
You admitted the same.
Joy struck upon me that day.

Not long later,
You had your vacation to Australia,
To visit your cousin.

You sent me the sms before your plane boarded,
I read it with a smile.

Those times, I use to see everything I want in a girl in you.
I truly treasure you the way I never did to anyone before.

A day without keeping contact with you seem to be a horror to me.
Sure, again I repeat, I was naive.

As we went out for movies for the first time,
I was timid, shy.
I sms-ed you to seek permission from you to hold your hand,
despite being next to you.
(haha that's laughable=b)

I clearly recall,
The times when you and a group of your Taman SEA mates drop over to DJ every friday.
We had our moments together then.

We were so shy then,
We were forced to give each other a hug.
That was the first ever hug I received.

I truly cherish the moment,
When you gave me a slight peak on my cheek.

I thought you were the one,
I want you to be the one.

However,
Probably I was over-obsessive,
Boring and not interesting.

That night,
When you told me off after 5 months of bliss,
It totally struck me.

I couldn't help as I teared.
I was so reluctant to let go,
But due to all respect to you,
I did.

Do you know,
You were the reason I have that extra inspiration to do athletics when I was Form2.
Do you know,
I dare to say you were a big part in making me who I am today.

After we broke up,
I pulled myself up to forgive myself and move on.
Frankly, that time, I teared every time I think of you as I train by myself.

Now that we're all grown up and mature,
I can see things are so different now.

On top of all that,
I've just got one final wish.
My wish is,
To know that you cherish our previous relationship too.
That would totally end my long-term pain on the chest.

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I tag,
Kirsten,
Joyce,
Hwee Ching,
Vincent,
Yi Ching

Sorry I've got a little emotional as I write this, I'm off:).

those feelings.

For those being single,
it is not the toughest thing to do.
Yes, you might have feelings on a particular someone,
and feel like you have to give up all and express all the feelings of yours.
Somehow, nothing hurts more than unreturned love.

i strongly support that fact.

You must know that you are special,
but do not lose focus in whatever you do,
or wherever you're heading.
If all goes well,
do not be afraid to share your feelings,
share the love.

Me being a normal being,
desires for love as well.
If you experienced unreturned love,
reaching for something you can't reach,
or aren't capable of reaching.
Well, i had my time too.
Things werent good,
you feel like hiding yourself in your blanket and just forget the world,
run away, secretly breaking apart,
or even shed tear a little.
Well you're not alone again, i went through that as well.

You've given all your heart,
but that someone had torn your heart apart.
Its really hard to love again.
It hurts as you have some much to say,
but you don't exactly know how to put it,
and she just walked away with ignorance.
I would say stay strong despite unloved,
don't affect your own well being for someone who's not worth it.
Treat it as a task He gave us,
stay strong and stay true.

Put aside your ego.
As all those ego is gona do to you is spoil you.
I don't fancy ego-maniacs,
nobody do.
However,
I dare you,
to live with love and show some love.
If you couldn't get someone out of your mind,
maybe because they're meant to be there.

To those who are loved,
you feel like living in wonderland,
and wish your time in your wonderland never ends.
You've found the reason,
the inspiration in doing everything you do,
giving your best to ensure you do not let your partner down.
The feeling felt so right.
Live together like there's no tomorrow.

I am who i am today,
because of the things you've done.
I'm standing,
moping,
here without you.
Do you know how does that feel?

When im with you,
i actually wanted to walk till the end of road with you.
I'd give up forever to touch you,
provide you the warmness you deserve.
After this, you will know that i'm running in a circle all these while.
Before i know love was blind,
i was blinded by you.
Its a queer feeling,
cause everytime you're around i feel weak,
and i cant keep my eyes off you.
I'd see everything you do as something beautiful.
I would be secretly picturing just you and me,
somewhere only we know..
but in fact,
dreaming to be next to you is the closest i'll ever get.